*Top: Express| Skirt: BP| Earrings: Michael Kors| Lips: Mac “cotton candy”| Watch: Michael Kors
Nothing strikes a more feminine note than a floral maxi skirt and a pop of color on your lips.
I sat down with my journal and wrote out a list of things that are life-giving and things that are life-draining. Noticing what I’m grateful for and writing it down. More of what I want to achieve in life, (like cooking more in the kitchen) what drains me from doing too much or not enough. This is exactly how my soul has been feeling, like it needs rest. My life draining moments have come from personal situations and situations that I could not help, like my mother’s cancer and also the fear of my child’s shunt malfunctioning. They both have taught me there are two different kinds of uncertainty in life. The kind of pretending that doesn’t exist and the kind that won’t let you pretend anymore. The kind that you wake up thinking about and go to bed thinking about, at nights I’ve almost convinced myself I’m the one with the cancer or the shunt, that’s the selfish side of me, it’s like I’m the one that will have the most dangerous outcome, not them. Satin has taken me on this emotional roller coast at times but realizing there is a greater good past a haunted house thrill ride of life, at times I have thought this is the cross that I have carry but of these two different kinds of uncertainties. My mother’s cancer was the “go” button on this ride. When you hear … “sorry there is nothing we can do, your cancer has spread through-out your body” … those are the words that keep your mind playing tricks on you or when you here “90 percent of Ovarian Cancer comes back”, it’s those negative moments that keep you waiting for the next bad experience., or the next and the next. Will there be better blessings after the next or will this be the final ticket to Heaven?
But the truth of the matter is, life will always be full of test and full of WAITING for the next event to happen. Life is not really a death sentence when something bad happens. In fact, it’s just a stepping stone to the next place to spend with our love ones – for eternally! – this has been the hardest to grab a hold of for me and to realize life isn’t about the negatives or the “waiting’s” to happen.
For now, I want my soul to rest in a romantic, dreamy place on my list of life-giving. I place where I can feel my most happiest. Here are a few ideas on my journal I wrote of things that I’m grateful for and the things that are LIFE-GIVING … what are some of your life-giving or even life-draining moments?
Where there is life, there is hope!
o Seriously can’t get enough of this song: “Middle” by DJ Snake
o Autumnwood Candles by Voluspa
o My ACTS community
o Hammock Camping
o Write a handwritten letter to a friend
o Listen to a song you love on repeat – all day
o Fill the room with your favorite scent
o Invite someone to lunch that you haven’t seen in a while
o Do something spontaneous