After walking away from seeing my mother in hospital beds and almost losing her life in a flash of an eye, at the time it felt like life was on repeat and the unknown of what the outcome would be. My most happiest moments of course has been sharing my journey through my blog, to learn, listen, share, give and help others along the way in my own way. My mom’s cancer is not the only thing to have happened through these years but I have no doubt that is severed as my awakening moment. I know my future will be judged by others and strangers and people who may know me has taught me the much higher values of family, true friends, love, happiness and compassion.
Cancer showed me how fortunate I am to have these as struggles, a defining point that I can overcome, grow from and use for the better unlike many others in similar or much worse situations as losing loved ones. (I can’t imagine)
I am finding true understanding in God work, confidence in being a stronger person and strength in myself from mental scars. I know that I can be truly happy by myself. I’ve been fortunate enough to surround myself with the best mother and father. I have a little boy that truly has the biggest heart and is growing up before my eyes. I have also learnt the need to walk away for the better. I have learnt to not only accept uncontrollable change. I can only hope for more years with my family and to see my mother grow old with me. I am thankful for the friends I have in my life and I am thankful for waking up to the beautiful morning to watch the sunrise and the sunset and to be in true meditation with God in all of his power and glory. The little things that are so simple in life: rolling out of bed when others are bed ridden, for brushing my own hair when others have to have someone else do it for them, for walking when other have to be pushed in wheelchairs, much less to know what it feels like to dance.
I’m so thankful for the little things.
Specially this beautiful sunset I caught fading off under the water
Xoxo – love your mothers