Crying Pretty | Halloween Ad For Ovarian Cancer

It started during the most painful time in my life, and it continues, and it will always continue. I’m grieving. I have and been trying to do something positive and meaningful to take me away from my suffering, and it’s important to me that my son feels like his life is still fun and that his mom is still fighting for her happiness to let her light shine on by a prettier way and not the normal “ugly cry” I usually do alone in my jeep.

Music has helped. In the mornings after the morning EWTN Mass, I hit play on Pandora. Mostly classic rock and maybe a few old school raps pass through but the other day I hit play on the Carrie Underwood station. “Cry Pretty” hit home for me, and this Halloween I had a great thought of being, well…. just me. Nothing is more scarier than cancer, and nothing is more scarier than seeing your mother helpless. So for that, it’s time for me to “cry pretty”, now I know this may seem odd, but if you ever heard the lyrics you might not think it’s that odd after all…

I’m sorry, but I’m just a girl

Not usually the kind to show my heart to the world

I’m pretty good at keeping it together

I hold my composure, for worse or for better

So I apologize if you don’t like what you see

But sometimes my emotions get the best of me

And falling apart is as human as it gets

You can’t hide it, you can’t fight what the truth is

You can pretty lie and say it’s okay

You can pretty smile and just walk away

Pretty much fake your way through anything

But you can’t cry pretty

Oh no, you can’t dress it up in lace or rhinestones

It don’t matter if you’re in a crowd or home all alone

Yeah, it’s all the same when you’re looking in the mirror

A picture of pain, so let it flow like a river

You can pretty lie and say it’s okay

You can pretty smile and just walk away

Pretty much fake your way through anything

But you can’t cry pretty

You can’t turn off the flood when the dam breaks

When all your mascara is going to waste

When things get ugly, you just gotta face

That you can’t cry pretty

Oh no, you can’t

Ooh, yeah

You can’t turn off the flood when the dam breaks

When all your mascara is going to waste

When things get ugly, you just gotta face

That you can’t cry pretty

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

No, you can’t cry

No, you can’t cry

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, woo

You can’t cry

You can’t cry pretty, baby

Oh yeah, woo, woo

No, you can’t cry pretty, yeah

I’ve become interested in blogging as a way of not only spreading my feelings or helping others who may be battling the same issues, but also to spread love, and sunshine, and kindness. I need to connect with that part of me again. Things like this sometimes can come in big statements like this tee-shirt I was given through a sponsored blog post how cancer has affected me. If you are offended, frankly my dear I don’t give a damn, sometimes it’s ok to throw a fit, scream, kick , and cuss it out. It’s a way to be able to feel how real these moments have been for me at the saddest time in my life.

It’s an universal phenomenon that what you put out into the world comes right back to you. Shine your life and sometimes it’s really ok to “cry pretty” when you are spreading hope, faith, and inspiration from pain.

I think you get the drift I’m going with here.

Happy Halloween everyone.

Best Wishes,

kacie

***this post is sponsored by Letsfcancer

Makeup by Shaunteal Prejean

Headshots by MaggieBradshawPhotography

Inspired by Carrie Underwood

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Comments

  1. Ginny Walley
    October 23, 2018 / 1:57 am

    You are such an amazing young lady. Thank you for this blog. It really hit home for me. Love you! Keep sharing your heart. You are blessing so many people who are going through this nightmare journey of cancer
    Big hugs!

    • carlson.kacie@yahoo.com
      October 23, 2018 / 11:49 am

      Thank you so much ms ginny. Hugs right back!

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