It’s early morning and I’m laying listening to the sounds of the thunder and heavy rains that are blowing in. As I’m laying here the only thing on my mind is my mother. We have been experiencing a little scare or at least me since that’s all I worry about are the little things but she has been having lumps pop up on her legs. Not sure what they are but we are due to go back in May. As most of you know I exspect the worse and think it’s cancer coming back. So many times I think: “lord please don’t let her cancer come back any time soon”, I just don’t think I could handle something so quickly after the trama we were faced. Not to mention the thought of planning a funeral again after we just went through those emotions.
When something like this happens there is a great deal of sadness and fear that will always have a hole in your heart. Even when you never expect something like this to hit your family. It does! When you think life can’t get any possibly worse. It can.
I have been trying to make the most out of life as of lately. I’m trying to keep busy, I’m trying to always be around someone so I’m not alone, but it’s always late afternoons before bed that hit me, and the middle of the night, into early mornings. I use to be a fun girl but now just an otter shell of who I use to be.
I have, however found new adventures along the way trying to keep my mind sane from depression and sadness. Here are the pictures I took over this past weekend of the love for nature I’m obsessing with these days. This place is along a river that will always have a special place in my heart forever more. It’s a place where I feel close to God and can look back with as something special I got to be apart of.
Do you have a special place to go? To meditate? To think? Or just to be alone?
the skirt I’m wearing is from fabric.com it was a little bouquet I found in Atlanta, Georgia. Such a great pattern for spring.